Controlling Chaos

So this is obviously long over due. These last two weeks have been full; full of stress, full of work, full of life. Skipper came in to town last Saturday and we tore Luzern up for a night, my parents and (surprise!) my sister also came to Switzerland, and a day later I was busting my ass for The Bake-Off. I've been busy, and haven't really been dealing with it all to well. It's hard to go through ten months of pure solitude, and then be blown out of hibernation and into clubs and BBQs. I spent today going through my closet and bookcase, dividing what to take and what to leave. It's crazy and chaotic and overwhelming, days keep rolling by and my life is starting to quickly twist and change. Ending and starting new chapters has never been a favorite of mine, I am just trying to stay positive about this one though, I am slowly starting to get the feeling that life has everything to do with perception, and I want this next chapter to be a brilliant one.

The Bake-Off was a fiasco. I started prepping at 5:30 am and the clock stopped at 5:33 pm. From start to finish I was lagging behind my time plan, and ended up tacking on three minutes that I charmed my way out of being penalized for. The whole time I was baking I felt like everything was going to shit. By the time the experts were done going over my products all I could do was go over to Chef Doug and cry into his shoulder. I was beat, I was in shock, and I had gotten through alive. It felt wonderful. Now that a few days have past I feel a lot better about how the whole thing went, and the reaction from my family and friends, hearing how proud they are and how well they thought I did, it doesn't make me care too much about the grade. I mean that. I spent months saying that I would just "do the best I could," mainly to cover my ass in case it all turned to shit. But I can tell you, I have NEVER in my life given as much of myself as I did for The Bake-Off. I busted my ass, and feel confident in saying that it showed in my work. I am officially a Confectioner, and it feels really good to be able to say that.

I have lived a good ten blogs in the last week, and have no idea where to even start. The next couple months are going to be just a continuance of chaos and life, so I hope to get back to the blog. I am in the process of changing somethings up before I return to the great CA, so I hope that you bare with me here.

Whew, ok, I just wanted to check in real quick. Change is coming...